Fortunate or Not ?

Fortunate or Not my life ? I guess yes if compared to African kids that are living without TV, Laptops , Mobile Phones & etc. Some even without food or water to survive. Sometimes , when you browse through facebook , you will see some picture of them lying on the muddy floor about to die due to improper food intake. Don't you feel bad that you're wasting your food despite them wanted to eat also can't. Sometimes i feel i'm so fortunate but sometimes i'm not. You see , i came out to help my mum work at the age of 11 years old okay let it be 12 years old. And my friends . . . until now at the age of 20 also haven't need to come out and work , some of cause are already working. Don't talk about the working ones , talk about the one without a job and lay their hands out getting money from their parents. They are so fortunate that they has a free car to drive , go here go there with all full expenses on their dad. Opp . wait not me ! I'm a helper or an admin in my parent's shop. I need to serve customers , deal with debtors and key in stock and other stuff to do too. But working at there gives me lotsa free time like sometimes i got nothing to do for hours unless i find something to do but it's hard cause when you really want to do something there is customers disturb you. So it's hard. And seeing why most of my friends do nothing to contribute in their family can get money easily. Some of them's pocket money are much more more then my salary. Isn't that fucked up you think ? Well , that's fate i guess. They said your life can see through your palms. And yes i really think that's true. My hands are ugly. I hate to show them up. There are thin and crooked and between them there are big gap (that means i like to spend) which is so f.true ! Thin and crooked i need to work hard all my life. Sighhh ... Don't you think that life ain't easy ? I got lots of thing to think about especially now that i semi finished my LCCI course. I wanted to further my studies again all because of my friends , they are all into degree now. Therefore i've been thinking a lot. Where to study is the best and this that. What most devastated to me was my level of education could't admit me to some colleges and doesn't accept me to study Adv. dip or Degree. The only Pathway was one ACCA. I don't think that i can achieve it but i never try i never know. So , i need to try and study for it. Therefore , choosing your course after you spm are very indeed important. Think Twice ! I got so much too worry about. I will pursue advertising and marketing if i can change the time back. I will study hard if i know it takes effort to achieve something. I'm too naive !

Well , it's not end of the world now.

Work to achieve. Fortunate people.

Sometimes i feel that fortunate people don't appreciate what they're actually having now. Fuck . That's me. If i got 1inch i would like to have 1feet more. That's human i guess. Greedy.

Whole lots of Shit i'm writing. Take care