Myself

Sometimes it's so tired to think about my future. I see things for my lifetime. I don't like doing stuff that i don't have faith on. 

Talk about college time. Reason why i dropped out and study in low cost center to get my cert is because i simply don't wanna waste my mum's money where i see that i play more then study. And i don't get much pocket money from my mum. Only good enough for everything. I din't know that i could work part time while study. All i know was that after class/weekend i gotta help up my mum to earn my pocket money. Ok well i don't really think so much back then. 

Why i failed my subjects. I swear that i din't know i really need to work hard for something. I was just fooling around. Things can't get into my head back then. But i literally liked Accounts. I scored an A2 during Spm. I did work hard on it because first of first this subject is new to me and i kinda like to count but not maths. Hate those formulas. All my Spm scores are just lucky enough to get me 4cs to get into college except for the Accounts i worked real hard on it. I fucking seriously din't know i gotta study so hard like an ant to pass through those subject. Well i dropped out during Sem 2. Wasted around 10k i'm sorry mum. 

After that I continued a program at low cost academy. LCCI, it's recognize tho it's cheap. But then i only took up and sit for 4 subjects out of 5. So i got myself an Diploma in computerized accounting. I dint' really use that cert for work cause i'm working for my mum in a hardware shop. Easy job but of cause i do sometimes very stress. 

Lately my friends around talks about future life. They wanna work overseas. I was thinking about myself, what about me. I literally got nothing. What should i do with my future life. My mum pursued me to study abroad like my friend this morning. But i think and think it is really worth for a go ? I'm 22 this year. If i'm going there to study i only get a Dip in management and i'm afraid that it isn't recognize back in Malaysia because the course fees were very cheap compared to the other friend that i know. Life at there would be very very hard for me. I gotta take up part time jobs and cope with new environment. This is only temporarily and after 2 years i'm 25 let's say i only got a diploma. What for i go study abroad right ? And what should i do after that ? 

The reason why i stayed at my mum's shop to work for so long

1st i don't like dealing/working with anonymous. It's so hard for me to learn new environment.

2nd of all my expenses won't cover it all. Too much of debts. 

3rd as it's a family business i hope next time they will give it to us. 

4th i don't need to see my boss's face. lol 

5th i'm useless and i admit it. 

Well as i said , i don't know what i should do/work/learn. If i know i will do as good as you all does.