. . .

Its already 8 months

-no gathering

-no contacting each other

-now all of them have their own new life

got gathering PUN like SHIT

just stay silent

its like 1 word also cant say it out

i think its only to me

to the others .. CHIT CHAT .. bla bla bla

seriously if can; i would like to go back to secondary school

ask them to confess why they hate me so much

or

go back to primary school and after graduating at primary i will choose other school

makes me feel so terrible

back to gathering

too much of people cant even talk to everyone

even though they nothing to talk with the others; they also wont talk to me

i know if u'readers' don know me u will say i sure did something wrong to them

or have a bad attitude against them

but seriously i have done nothing at all except '38' & different opinion

different opinion pun salah ke

recalling back to secondary school

i remember FORM 4 that time ,

we need to choose what society or club we want to join;

because of no one willing to talk to me

just like dumping me beside the dustbin

i walked to other places and have a talk with the boys

and guess what

ALL of my FRIENDS don even notice that i have gone

almost finish the sessions ; only SAN noticed

im like a TOY to them

whenever they want to go out i will follow

#i like to hang out with friends so i wont reject them

whenever i ask them to go out

they will say

-mum dont let

-no money

-tuition

until now i still got ask them to go out BUT once they REJECTED me again

thanks

almost whenever u call me out; out of 10 , 9 times i will be there

and me , i need to follow your precious time to go out

# i wont blame anyone cause im just willing to do that

#i thought that we were friends

now .. whenever u all got go out; u all don even bother to call me

thanks . im not hurt

sometimes i treat my friends better than my own sister

why ? why should i do that

its meaningless now when i recalling all the situation back

i have been already lost many of my friends

don know why

is it because of i don know how to speak mandarin

YEA.. im very appreciate that when i got dengue fever

i stayed at the hospital for few days

and u all visited me

touching huh ?

and now im telling u all why i don want to tell u all when i sick

because . . . i don think that u all will care about me

So, what for telling u all

but that time i did told one of them cuz i need to ask for her help

SEE .. things changes so fast

u can really feel it when u step into my life

i know if i really post this it will make the situation more worse

but i just cant keep in my heart that long

and i really hope that all of us will come out and have a gathering

& CHIIT CHAAT

wish too

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